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A 24 hour snapshot into the life of this single mom

I didn’t start crying until Maya demanded to know when I was going to return the three quarters I took from her piggy bank. Let me start from the beginning. First text of the morning, from my property manager, showing … Continue reading

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Radiohead now and 20 years ago

Generally I try to avoid “why me” in dealing with the intricacies of life because it’s simply not productive. Recently I began going through my sister’s artwork in an effort to find a painting. When I saw how neatly everything … Continue reading

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29 December 2016

I was going to write about what it felt like to look through Miriam’s artwork (I was looking for a specific piece, and it was hell). Or about how the props and sets from Flash Gordon were repurposed in Dune. … Continue reading

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Gratitude ’16

It’s nearing the end of the year and I want to look back on the things I’m grateful for in 2016. A hug from my daughter A hug from my son The sound of wind in the trees My freedom … Continue reading

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Freedom ’16

The best thing I did in 2016 is to stop living my life for my parents, my sister, my ancestors, and everyone else who had an opinion on what I should do to fucking make them happy and begin living … Continue reading

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My (not so) little (anymore) zen master

I was under a lot of pressure after my sister and brother in law died and I became guardian of my nephew Dmitri in 2011. According to his current school psychologist he was suffering from institutionalized autism as well as … Continue reading

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The bravest, strongest, wisest man I’ve ever known

I am so incredibly thankful for my family. A close family member sent me this article from 1985 today, otherwise it would have been lost to me forever. My dad has been gone since 2007 and I haven’t read his … Continue reading

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Man enough to wear a funny hat

A photo posted by fickleknitter (@fickleknitter) on Dec 19, 2016 at 5:44pm PST He wears funny hats A photo posted by fickleknitter (@fickleknitter) on Dec 4, 2016 at 6:27pm PST He sits with me when I meditate, sometimes only a … Continue reading

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Too much thinking

My sister and I used to joke that we were going to move to France when we were 85 and live in a tiny village town together, going down to the local pretend village for food with little baskets in … Continue reading

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Meditation hurts

A video posted by fickleknitter (@fickleknitter) on Dec 19, 2016 at 5:38pm PST No one told me meditation hurts. But it does. Your feet fall asleep. Maybe it makes your butt hurt or your hip. It makes the middle of … Continue reading

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